Accepting Help

My birthday is coming up soon, hard to believe I'll be 37....

So much has happened in the last year, I couldn't begin to sum it up...I wouldn't know where to start. I feel like I've been on the spin cycle, and whenever I get my head out for air, it gets shoved back in....and on and on and on.

It's only 8pm and it feels like 11pm...and now I feel like I could just sleep for hours and hours.

I have no appetite, but slammed some phenergan and forced myself to eat. Meds don't work if there's nothing for them to work with.

I got approved for a caregiver, and someone to help with showers, and to help with shopping and all the stuff no one has been, and no one will. It's gonna be a challenge learning to accept it.

I know I can, I know~~I love this, and it's what I need. But scary at the same time...